I like to hang out
I like to hang out
I see seven fucking things in my inbox and at first I’m really excited but then this shit comes up? Are you kidding me? ONCE IS ENOUGH?
Don’t you dare skip this. Watch it, now. Now.
I don’t understand what my problem is. It’s like if my drawings aren’t good enough like I want them to be, then I get fed up and put my tablet away. I feel this weird and strong desire that I have to visually “pour out” my feelings onto artwork that is drawn, and make it beautiful. But I’m not proficient enough and I won’t be for years. It upset me because I feel like I need to do it because I love art so much. I’m drowning in all these dark thoughts and emotions, that I need to improve my skills and pour it out.
Okay, don’t you fucking dare be like “Oh well you need to practice” yeah I’m not some dumb shithead, I KNOW THAT. I just don’t know how to get the patience to do so. I don’t even draw anymore because I like drawing, I draw because I want to amaze people and be a professional at it. I even want to be an animator when I grow up but I don’t even know if that’s what I truly want to do.
Sadly, I’m riddled with so much impatience and frustration. I get jealous too easily of professional artists and it makes me feel like I’ll NEVER EVER be the artist I want to be. I feel so inferior. But at the same time, I want to draw for fun, not to be perfect.
What the fuck is wrong with me…? Why can’t I be patient? Why can’t I love drawing without expecting every single piece that I make to be “perfect”?
You are pointing out at millions and millions of people in this world, most of the whole fucking human population, who have walked on grass in their lifetime. Even me. Do you really feel good about yourself for doing that?
⚜ They say I’m a control freak.. ⚜
Just because he likes boys does not mean he’s flamboyant.
Just because she likes girls does not mean she’s butch.
Dr.DJ: whats b-day
VastWhite™ (B-Day in 2 days!!!): Are you kidding me? You don’t know what B-Day stands for?
VastWhite™ (B-Day in 2 days!!!): …
VastWhite™ (B-Day in 2 days!!!): BIRTHDAY!?!
Dr.DJ: NOW I REMEMBER
VastWhite™ (B-Day in 2 days!!!): LIKE YOU COULDN’T FIGURE THAT OUT!?